Healing

I sense that some of the following areas can find some healing through the Waking Down process.

1. Awakening
   When I had my opening/awakening in my teens, I was not able to integrate and ground it fully. Partly due to a personality that was not well developed and integrated at the time, and partly due to (for a while) not finding others who understood and could guide. There was a good deal of pain around this.
   
   
2. Special vs. Ordinary
   I have a charge around "specialness" and spiritual practice/awakening. I have habitual patterns where I experience an aversion towards the "special" approach, and am attached to it being "ordinary". This is a need that grew out of my awakening situation, where I experienced myself as profoundly isolated socially and "special". I desperately wanted the awakening to be ordinary socially (commonplace among those I interacted with) and personally (fully integrated and grounded in my life).
   
   
3. Comfort and Integration
   I want to experience a deeper comfort with my awakening and realizations, an increasingly profound integration of it in my life, an increased ease and comfort in living it fully, and increased ease and comfort in communicating it to others.
   
   
4. Arrogance vs. Humility
   I developed arrogance as a way to distance myself from contracted states, as expressed in other human beings (reflecting my own of course). I want to let go of this habit, and open up for genuine curiosity and interest in how Mind and Spirit is expressed in other human beings - whether the states are open or contracted. Along with this goes recognition of projections (what I see in others I recognize in myself), true empathy and humility.